Strange thangs for some CHANGE
There’s nothing quite like the changing of the seasons in the city. One minute you’re sweating balls, and in a matter of 12 hours you’re digging the winter coats out of the back of the closet; and while there may still be a handful of those perfect fall days to come, you can bet your ass- if you still have one after freezing it off- that by Halloween, we will have entered the Kansas City pre-winter, winter. As the weather did what it did best and changed, my friends and I pretty much stayed the same. Abigail started another new job in the psychiatric branch of the healthcare industry taking care of kids, where she contracted pink eye after a teenaged girl spit in her face. Marie’s marital issues were down to a simmer, with the occasional flare of a boil, and I have been working hard on research projects and running my family business.
While it sounds like all work and no play, we’ve all had the time to get together for a couple of outings to include karaoke and a Steve Aoki concert. I myself took a trip to the beach, attended a sneaker ball, and celebrated my man’s 35th birthday. A moment of silence for “my man’s” instead of “my husband’s”…
*Silence*
I honestly don’t know who celebrated more, considering I was carrying him up to our 5th floor loft before midnight. What makes it better, is the full-on experience of Déjà vu, considering his birthday last year ended in the exact same manner.
As I sit and think about the weather’s ability to change, and how the Earth has spent that last 4 billion years changing, I wonder why it’s so hard for people to? I would consider myself to be one that welcomes change; I mean I’ve never even lived in the same house, or gone to the same school, for longer than 3 years. But if I am so open to change, why do I continue to sacrifice my happiness to avoid it? I’m not even strictly talking relationships. I will stay unhappy in a job, for fear of not finding another fast enough, fear that I will hate the next job more than my current one. I will stay unhappy in my daily routine, knowing that getting up only an hour earlier every day will start my day off in better spirits. I stay unhappy in friendships with people simply because I fear I would miss them if I stopped talking to them. It has become apparent that we live in a world where fear rules us. We get amazing ideas then stifle them for fear of failure or criticism. We stay complacent in relationships for fear of being alone. We stay friends with people we’ve grown apart from for fear of missing out. We stay in careers that make us unhappy for fear of starting over. At what point to we take the control away from fear, and give it back to us? What we have to remember is that change breeds creation. It’s the circle of life. We can either set the fear aside and enjoy the journey in taking chances, or always live with the feelings of ‘What if?’. Just think- if Earth didn’t spend billions of years changing, life wouldn’t exist. Change for life. Change to live. Change for you.
